What do you think of when you hear the word "Transformation"? For me it means changing and evolving for the better. But how does it really feel like when one undergoes the transformation process? One thing's for sure -- it is not an easy process. When you undergo a transformation, it means going back to basics. Unlearning what you know and accepting new ways. Sometimes transformation can hit you pretty bad that you think it is not necessary. But in the long run, it is always important to understand the need for such change. You may not believe and understand it now, but at least try to give it a chance. Sometimes hearing the word scares me. Not because I am afraid of what it brings, but because I am too comfortable where I am now and I think any movement will cause me to fall down. But hey, I have been through tougher times. And I will surpass this for sure.
It's been a loooonnnnggg time since I last wrote down my thoughts. Times are hard and it's very challenging to keep up with the demands of life. Sometimes I can't help but wonder why other people are luckier than some. And then I go on thinking if I am part of the "luckier" ones. Yes, I may have problems and and challenges that I have to go through but at least I am still alive. My loved ones are still with me and I can still go through each day, albeit one day at a time. I wake up every day thinking if I can still go on another day pretending that everything's ok. And then I finish each day thinking how I was able to go through the entire day without giving up. And then, I look at the people I love and I know the answer. It's because of them that I keep on struggling and I keep on fighting. To the words of my husband, "you are not helpless because everyday you choose to fight". Life is tough. But I am tougher. I can. I will.