October 8th, 2007
i am starting to get frustrated with what is happening w/ me right now. i would like to believe that something good will come out of this but i can't seen to get myself to ACTUALLY believe. what makes it worse is that the other person thinks that i am just doing this just because i feel like doing so. i hate it! when can he actually realize that i mean what i say? when can he fully believe that i am tired of waiting? that i am really sick and tired of dealing with his unkept promises and mismanaged priorities? i have set a deadline for myself...and he knows that. but he doesn't believe. i just hope it won't come THAT point. both of us won't like the result. but i made that deadline, and i plan to stick to it. arrggghhh!!!! i hate it!!