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Easy way out

Yesterday (February 22), i took the easy way out.
It's been almost a week since I gave birth to Jakob Caleb (separate post on my birthing story and the name).  I have been trying to breastfeed him since day 1 and I can say I was somehow successful on the first 4 days.  But came the 5th day...and i was literally crying and screaming every time I nurse him. Everything just seemed so wrong.  He was very fussy, probably because he can't get that much milk yet from me and I was scared of feeding him because i know how painful it's going to be.  We were awake from 1:40 AM until 7:00 AM just because he can't seem to be satisfied with my milk.
Jake decided on Saturday morning to buy him the recommended formula given by the pedia.  And we fed him the bottle, and he fell soundly asleep for about 3 hours.
I know i could have tried harder...but the bottomline is i don't think i can do it.  I have always admired mothers who breastfeed their babies without any problems and I'm …

Few hours away...

Finally, after 37 weeks of waiting, I am now admitted at the hospital and in a few hours I will be giving birth to our precious son, Jakob.
It's entirely different this time...i have more time to prepare and be scared.  Truth is, I'm not nervous. I'm scared...totally.  I want to cry everytime Jenika tells me not to be scared.  Not because I'm scared of needles and the operation.  But because I'm scared something would go wrong.
On the other hand, I am so excited.  After almost 5 years, we're gonna have another baby in the family.  And even Jenika is excited.  Tomorrow afternoon Jakob will be here...for real.  And I can't help but feel the excitement in my bones.
I'm pretty sure by the next post I write, Baby Jakob will be in my arms.  And Daddy, Jenika and me will be even more complete.

The calm before the storm

Exactly 1 week to go before my scheduled CS operation...and I'm starting to get more and more excited and terrified.

In a week's time, we'll have a new baby in the house.  In a week's time, I will be holding our precious boy.  In a week's time, Jenika will be an Ate.  And all of this suddenly came too soon.

I was browsing through my previous Birthing story post and I can't believe that it has been almost 5 years!  Everything seems to be clear in my mind.  The details from my admission to my discharge from the hospital is still clear and vivid.

Next week, I will be repeating those steps and this time, I will be more prepared.  I don't know it that is an advantage or not.

All I'm asking for is for me to have a safe and uncomplicated delivery and for my baby to come out healthy.

Health is Wealth

We just came home from Asian Hospital's ER.  No, it was not a case of preterm labor.  The hubby was not feeling well and we decided to bring him to the hospital.  Fortunately there was no need to confine him but we had to stay for about 3 hours so he can be hydrated thru IV.
I felt helpless and still feeling helpless until now.  I'm not used to seeing him weak.  He is the strong one in the family and i always depend on him.  But this time, i had to be the strong one.  Thank God he's feeling better though still feeling sick at least he is not that weak anymore.
My father also took the chance to have himself checked since his left eye was bloody red and. I suspect there must have been some broken nerve.  And I'm correct...there was some affected nerve and he had to undergo some medication.  What surprised me and probably him was that he needs to have himself checked by a cardiologist.  His blood pressure was really high.  He was a bit hesitant at first but I insisted that …