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Hurting...

but trying hard not to...

but some people just don't think before they act (or speak).

some just keep on hurting you deliberately. some unconsciously.

either way, it still hurts too much especially when the one hurting you is someone who claims to love you.

too much drama in life...it sucks...

sometimes it makes one think that you are not important enough or nobody cares.

truth is, they do care. but not enough to know that they are already hurting you.

sometimes just letting go, moving on and thinking happy thoughts help ease the pain you are feeling.

but sometimes, the people who hurt you prevent you from letting go as they keep on hurting and hurting you.

it's hard to live in a world where people don't know how to express their feelings and don't know how to
be sensitive to what others may feel.

sometimes we just can't help but feel tired of being so helpless, abandoned, rejected, and neglected...

and sometimes we even have to beg for someone to give us attention.

it is so ironic...they tell you they love you, they tell you they care...but they simply fail to give you
the attention that you need.

being alone sucks...

crying sucks...it makes your eyes so puffy.

begging for attention sucks...

hurting sucks...

life sucks...

the only thing that doesn't suck is the fact that a new life is forming in this world and never will i let him/her,
experience all the hurt, neglect, rejection in this life...

i'll do everything i can to make this world a happy one for him/her...

never...never...never...

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